What’s going on here?

Posts written by K. W. Holland.

A few things to know about this blog:

  • Actually, if you know a few things about this blog, you probably know more than I do.
  • But I plan to write as I explore faith and life and art and culture. Assume everything here is a first draft. Whatever I say about any particular subject, I am probably wrong and will likely change my mind.

A few things to know about me:

  • What I’m reading, what I’ve read.
  • I came of age in the 1980s in a conservative, evangelical family.
  • I’m gay. (Are there a lot of gay kids who grew up evangelical, or do those of us who did just talk about it a lot?) I am happily married to a wonderful man. We don’t have any kids, so we smother our dogs with a level of love and attention that is probably unhealthy.
  • From college until my late forties, I was a practical atheist. This means I was probably more agnostic than anything, but I basically lived as if there were no God, and if there were one then it probably didn’t matter, although I always assumed that “someday” I would probably find my way back to some kind of faith.
  • In my late forties I was diagnosed with stage 4 colorectal cancer that had spread to my liver and lungs. I was told I was inoperable. Today, in my early fifties, I am cancer-free, though not without some consequences. I will try not to dwell too much on all that in this blog.
  • I have been an Episcopalian now for several years. No, I did not return to the church to be “healed” or, failing that, to “go to heaven.” I assumed (and still do) that God doesn’t really intervene in things like cancer diagnoses (and if he does, he has made some really tragic choices throughout history). And despite believing in the Resurrection as a literal (not figurative) event in history, I still struggle with the notion of “afterlife.”
Last edited July 13, 2020